First time snorkeling and getting Shave ICE

A few first and getting aquatinted with this island... The first weekend we arrived on the island, we hooked up with another couple i went to high school with (small world right?) and went snorkeling for the first time! Kol loved it! 

Also Another first, Our first Hawaiian style Shave Ice... And yes its Shave not shaved!

Shave ice, with 3 flavors, ice cream in the middle and sweetened and condensed milk on top! Sounds strange but it is amazing!!!!!

beach bum

We were made for this life

Our new life...

God really showed out on this little piece of the world 

The loves of my life seeing the Pacific ocean for the first time

You can take the boy out of the country... but you cant take the country out of the boy <3

Coral mom!!!

The first beach we played at... Turtle Bay resort 

It was an exhausting first day exploring 

Moving Day

January 8th 2015 the movers arrived at my house in NC and started packing up the last 26 years of my life and my sons 5 years... It was a sad day and exciting day. I had 108348 different emotions and I had no idea how to act around my family. They knew we were leaving and it would not ever be the same... My husband signed up to serve his country and I signed up to follow him and support him whole heartedly, that even meant to pack my entire life up and move 4600 miles away... 

My living room packed... Kolbey was keeping the movers entertained with his nerf gun...

Sigh... My room as a child and then it was turned into Kolbeys room once I moved back into the house as a Adult

Master bedroom

Kolbey the last time he was in his childhood room

The movers came and went and January 9th at a little after 5am we arrived at the Charlotte Douglas International Airport. I went back to that moment when i had 34358783 different emotions and had no idea what to say, or how to act around my family. My mom and dad drove us to the airport, we checked 13 total bags! (It was insane! And the unbelievable part is that they made it to Hawaii in one piece! haha) Our flight was canceled due to snow at a connecting airport up north, so they said my husband would have to go without us and we could follow the next day... i started holding my breathe, he automatically said NO that he would absolutely not leave his family behind. We were told if we could run and make it to a flight that was leaving NOW then we could go together but we couldn't sit together. We had to quickly hug my parents and run! Kolbey cried, I tried so hard, as i was running not to cry and to be strong for Kol; but as i tried so hard to keep a straight face, tears trickled down. At that moment I realized that unless you've experienced this, that no one knows how it feels to look at your family as you leave them for who knows how long...? And i cant imagine the feeling that they had watching their only child and only grandchild run down to security to find their terminal that would be taking them 4600 miles away from normal. 
It was a really hard day for us... all of us. When we got on the plane i cried, i was exhausted and just wanted to bury myself in a pillow and scream! But I had to be strong for Kolbey who was terrified from watching 5 min of sharknado, he was certain that the sharks were going to kill us on the plane? I had to breathe... flying made me nervous, flying over the entire country we know and love and all that hard land made me nervous, flying over the ocean made me nervous, not getting to sit with my husband made me nervous... I was just completely nervous... 

Our first flight was to Washington DC and we seen snow for the last time for a very long time... We connected quickly to LAX in California. We were exhausted! Still had not even had breakfast, we grabbed a soda and left LAX heading straight to Honolulu, Hawaii. Our flight was crazy, no one would let us sit together. The stewardess made a announcement that we were a military family flying to Hawaii on orders and no one budged. One lady eventually got up and said what will you do for us? The stewardess said absolutely nothing! She was so mad at how selfish the lady was. then my husband ask a couple but they were newlyweds and didnt want to separate. Finally this nice couple slid over and i sat on one side of the isle and Kolbey sat on the other. It was not ideal but at least we were together. Kol sat right beside the couple who wouldn't separate and he flipped and flopped for 6 hours on them. But hey, we were across the isle from each other, i couldnt do much (lol) and then the rude lady that asked what we would do for her, kol sit right behind her... So, ya know, when he was flipping and flopping he was hitting her seat as well... The stewardess was so nice, She would see Kol hitting the ladies seat and just smile and would tell him he was such a good boy :) she offered us free alcohol for all the trouble as well and to the couple who slid over. I didnt get any, but the couple did :) 
I will never forget seeing that bright blue ocean for the first time in the air... The sweet couple i sat with talked to me the entire time, they went to Hawaii a lot with business so they knew a lot about it. I will also never forget the smell and humidity change when we walked off the plane into the open airport... Remember we were flying in early January where it was about 15 degrees the morning we left and we flew into 70 degree weather. 
We got all 13 bags, got the hubby checked in with the Army, and grabbed our shuttle to our hotel. We stayed really close to the airport at the Best Western Plaza Hotel. We got to the hotel and was settled by 9:30pm Hawaii time which was 2:30am the next day NC time! We were Exhausted! 
The next day we got our rental car, some friends from my high school who were stationed at the same post dropped us off and we started exploring... I think the beauty of Hawaii healed our hearts a little...

where the mountain connects to the ocean

I couldnt stop thinking about my gram when i seen those big, beautiful mountains 

The first time we seen the North Shore of Oahu

Ahhh the Norfolk Pine! Ive been so excited to see these ever since we got our orders... This is the Hawaiian style christmas tree :)

Famous and our favorite little town on the North Shore... Haleiwa

The one word we could pronounce in the beginning 

The beautiful Haliawa bridge that i later conquered my fears and paddle boarded under :)

The first place we stopped at.... Sigh it is sooooooo beautiful 

WOW Where has the time gone! Lets rewind

WOW I cant believe how long it has been since I have blogged... It's a shame how much you have missed and I am sad that I didn't create a timeline of events because I am sure i will miss something.... Well, to catch you up a bit I am now Mrs Kellie Waite... And have been for over a year now. But lets rewind a little bit...

To catch you up, I created this blog as almost a journal to get me through the tough deployment that my boyfriend and I were going thru. It was crazy tough and we pulled away from each other for a while then reconnected. He came home July of 2014 and I flew up to Fort Drum NY and surprised him. It was so nice to see him! It was a crazy weekend, we stayed at a hotel and had to do 10 things to get him back on track because he had been out of the country for so long... He had to get his stuff out of storage, vehicle inspection, new tires, move back in to the barracks and many, many other things. It was a stressful time but we pulled through it... I went home after a very brief visit and then he came to NC where i lived on block leave. My dad and Shay had a important conversation of where our relationship was going----> I found this out a little later on... Shay had received orders to be stationed in Hawaii and we all knew that would be almost impossible to have a relationship 3+ years and fly 4600 miles back and forth to see each other. The last visit we had we were heart broken. We went on a cruise together. The hub had never cruised before and picked Royal 
 Caribbean's Largest ship in the ocean to go on. We decided our future in so many words on the trip and then in Nov of 2014 we were married. We got married on a 4 day weekend. 

Its OFFICIAL

My dad signed off on the marriage because he is a pastor and then we drove as fast as we could back to the courthouse to get our official copy that declared we were indeed husband and wife. Immediately after, myself, Kol our son and Shay drove to Fort Jackson SC to get my military ID and to be added to DEERS so my husband could get his orders amended to include myself and my son so that we could PCS (move) with my husband. 

It was prob the most stressful time in my life! Shay had to have his orders amended before christmas leave because he wasnt going back to Drum, he was to report to Hawaii January 9th 2015. Fort Bragg NC moved me and Fort Drum moved him. Our orders were amended and we were on our way... 

My son (age 5) taking a picture of us after I got my ID card at Fort Jackson SC... This sums up the craziness in our lives lol

Its a new YEAR... and my mans coming home during it!!!

HELLO!!! Well, it has been too long! I have been in the awfullest fog lately... reading my old post, dear Lord i was sappy... Well, enough of that! There is still a million things going on and it is overwhelming most of the time, either im getting used to it or going crazy? Who knows ;) 

Lets get ya caught up.... 

I am still working like a wild woman but have slowed down a bit. Kolbey is still 100% of my focus. I love that boy to the moon and back. He has been struggling some with the transition of his dad coming back into his life. It is going fairly well but we are all having to get used to it. Myself and his dad have now been to court and have a court order. At this time my ex only gets to see Kol 6 hours per week and is now paying child support. There is still LOTS of drama there, unfortunately but I suppose we will eventually get over it. I'm still loving my new job and really connecting with the kids and building relationships with them. Christmas is finally over! For the first time ever im so glad! I was a dark time for me. Shay finally got his new Nike boots i sent him. He said he loved them, they were the ones he wanted. He sent me a beautiful scarf that i have worn everyday since i received it. He sent me a beautiful set of Sapphire ear rings, necklace with pendant, and a ring. He sent Kolbey some patches, a compass, and a scarf. He also sent Kol his target practice sheet which kol thought was awesome. Then a few weeks later I received a surprise big bouquet of flowers! I loved them, they were beautiful! They have lasted over a week now and are still so beautiful! When i walk threw the house i smell them and think of him. I have never been a fan of spending so much money on something thats going to die but I really "needed" them, I have felt so much better since I received them ;) I'm feeling much closer to Shay lately which im happy about. I think my heads not so much fogged now and I am trying not to take my hurt and hate on every guy just because of the last one. He is saying that he is going to reclass and change his MOS which means that when he gets home from deployment he will be at the mercy of the army and will be moving from Fort Drum. I am not sure exactly how i feel about it. Fort Drum was the place I ran when I needed to get away and the thought of not going back makes me sad. I just love Drum soooo much. But the bestie that was stationed in Drum and started all this madness ;) has now moved down south!!!! Im super excited that she's a lot closer but again I am sad shes left Drum. I'm trying to think of it as a new experience... So welcome to Fort Stewart for now! I need a new experience! I am actually driving down when I get off work Friday, hopefully. I have a few things to square away first.... Well thats all for now! Time for some netflix and cuddle time with my main man!

<3 Kellie

My beautiful flowers my baby sent me while he was deployed!

After almost 2 weeks I picked out the best of what was left and made another arrangement <3 Love it

In a blur...

Well, It has been a while since i have taken some time to sit down and write. the problem is that i just don't have the time... I have a million things it seems like going on in my life. i have taken on a new job, kolbey has started pre school, i am working at the salon and working full time at a pediatric doctors office, my boyfriend has just deployed, i am in a mean custody battle with my ex, i will soon be getting my divorce, im about to be drug threw court, my best friend is still away but hopefully moving home soon. And with all that said i still have to make time to be the best mom i can be and a single mom at that. life is hard right now, im still trying to figure out exactly what i want and where i see my future. i just wish i could pause my life and just take a breath and sit and watch myself. sometimes you need to see things from the outside looking in.  sometimes i think i know exactly what i want and who i want to share it with and then the next minute i am just in a blur? the only thing i know is that i want to be the best mom that i can be and i want to be independent and continue to be a hard worker. i feel like i don't have a real life besides just working and seeing kol, sometimes i feel like i need to come up for air. i know at the end of the day, it is all worth it. i have an amazing little man who i pray i can mold into a wonderful man someday. i want nothing in the world but joy for him and to be his band-aid when he needs me. hes what im sure about. i want to go to bed and wake up to him knowing hes loved and safe. my heart is soooo screwed up when it comes to guys but my heart excepts kolbey's love. this divorce and deployment at the same time has been a tremendous burden on me. i have emotions on both sides. i have a lot of regrets with my marriage that i am trying to emotionally work out with myself. i have worked out what i could with my ex verbally and expressed how i feel and how ive felt but now its time to allow myself to heel and learn how to feel again. the holidays are so hard! i love cute traditions and all ive ever wanted was my own family to share them with. last yr myself and my ex had split up but we still did Halloween together in sc where his family lives and then for christmas kols dad came over and we put kol to sleep and got the house ready for santa, his dad went home and the next day kol woke up like nothing was different. i cry all the time thinking of how things will forever be different. all i wanted was a family, my own family. i suppose i sometimes think as the glass being half empty instead of being halfway full. i think its easier to have never loved rather than to have loved and lost? i know how it felt to have the family. to wake up in your pj's christmas morning and sit as a family and enjoy each other. to do everything together... i used to just sit and watch the boys sleep, it was just a sweet peaceful feeling... i think about all these things and it breaks my heart, but you can't live in your past. there was so many things going wrong and they have came to a point where they can not be fixed. so now we live different lives and keep very different memories. when i try to think about the past i just take a deep breath and remember not to look back. you can only move forward if your looking ahead.... i was doing everything i could last holiday season to try and not think about the past but i tried to stay numb and this will be my first, i guess you could say "sober holiday" since we split up and i am trying my best to stay positive, its just sooo hard. i have to live with the fact that i didnt fight for the "family", i was young and dumb and we just went our separate paths. now we have different hopes and dreams and no matter what no one should ever change there dreams to please someone elses. so today is the day i continue to move forward and get on with my life. im ready for the emotional handcuffs to be lifted. i am just emotionally exhausted, its not fair to shay. i try to be his cheerleader and be there for him but i feel like i am stretched so thin. i will stand by him 100% during this deployment, he shouldn't have to worry about me while he's gone. so during this deployment my plan is to evaluate my life and try to find out who i am and what i want in life and then go get it! we will see how it goes but im not stopping til i find out.... 
thats all for now
<3 Kellie

i'm back!!!!!

He is deploying tomorrow:/ So I guess blogger just became my new best friend...